Thursday, December 22, 2005
Hakuna Matata
I guess this time I'm beginning to understand yet another aspect of life.
I used to tell myself, remind myself, yet I couldn't just get it right.
But now, everything is starting to unfold. Theories don't work until proven.
It took me quite some time to figure this out, but at least I finally did.
I'm going to put everything behind, and start a new phase in life. I'm not going to be weighed down by the awful memories of the past, neither am I going to let my future be affected by these memories. Rather, I will be reminded of the times where I smiled and laughed, without any worries.
Maybe that's why I got this job. It's not an obligation to smile at everyone that walks by the shop or into the shop. But at least it keeps me happy, even if some people don't ever smile back. Putting a smile on my face reminds me to remain optimistic about life.
I never want to go back to the path of darkness ever again, neither do I want to see those around me suffer the way I did.
"You know I can't smile without you, can't smile without you. I can't laugh and I can't sing, I'm finding it hard to do anything. You see I feel sad when you're sad I feel glad when you're glad If you only knew what I'm going through, I just can't smile without you"
♥ ChrystaL @ 2:17 AM
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
Trying to Tie Up Loose Ends
Okay, been a long time since I've blogged. But I guess I should "pen" down some thoughts before I go bonkers. LoL.
Work has been okay for me (to those who have always been concerned), kinda enjoy it. I can't really imagine myself stuck in on an office chair with 4 walls facing me all day, doing the same stuffs over and over again. I think I will just die of claustrophobia or something along that line. Haha, those who needs LCD monitor, tv or notebooks, come find me at Funan! =X
There's also something else which I have tried to avoid facing or talking about, simply because I wish to have to memory of it. But I shouldn't do it, it's dillusional, and I should stop doing that. Hur. Somehow I just feel something hasn't been resolved, like no proper ending to a story. Yet I know this is all I can do for myself (or at least for him). So I guess I should stop attempting to do something to make him feel better. I know I can't say sorry, because it's not anyone's fault. Even when 2 paths cross, it has to happen at the right (or wrong) time, if not they will either not meet or squabble or something whatever wrong can happen... Blah blah blah...
It has been a tough journey for me this whole year. Fighting off the emotional torment. But I did it (although I thought I wouldn't ever get out of this). Sometimes, it's good to forget about whatever happened before, because it makes you happier. This is why I chose not to try again.
I have moved on. Have you?
♥ ChrystaL @ 7:21 PM
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
X'mas Month
It's X'mas in about 3 weeks, a jolly season of thanksgiving and spending quality time with family and friends. Work has started for me, sold 3 LCD monitors and 1 HDD DVD recorder! Not bad for a noob like me eh. Okay la, it's a form of motivation for me I guess, but I am so not used to standing for so long, unlike back in sec 4 after my O levels where I had to stand around the whole day as well. Maybe I'm getting lousy in fitness. =X
Will be working there for another few months or more, so I guess I do have to keep a positive attitude. I kinda enjoy it. Only there for 3 days and I learnt quite a lot from my colleagues. But I think I will get really sick of Funan and Sim Lim now? Haha... Okay la, got pizza hut!
Anyway, I don't know when I will be posting next time, because I've been so tired recently. And I've been trying to catch up on lost sleep. Haven't been able to sleep really well, some of you will know why. Or maybe I am just thinking too much la... bleahs.
Duh.
♥ ChrystaL @ 11:30 PM
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